Esther-For a Brief Second I Wanted to Run

By Mary Vee
Esther 5

From Esther's Journal

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My name is Esther. Three days have gone by.

My maids, servants, and I have prayed and fasted. I'd like to say I'm not worried, but deep down in my heart there is an uneasy feeling.

The king has the power to kill me. Even though he chose me to be queen over all of the other women in the empire.

My uncle, Mordecai asked me to go before the king. Plead with him to undo the terrible act Haman has done. What did that awful man do? He convinced the king to sign an edict to kill all the Jews in just a few months. Mordecai seemed to think I can get the king to change his mind.

I don't know what to say. I don't know what to do.

My maids, attendants, all the Jews in Susa and I have prayed these three days and still the words have not come to me. 

But it is time. Three days have gone by.

"My lady," one of my maids walked toward me. "Here is your royal robe as you requested."

I slipped my arms through the sleeves and rotated my shoulders to help the cloth fall smoothly down my body. I asked my attendants to fix my hair. 

I absolutely had to look pleasing to king if there was any hope of him extending his scepter...and saving my life.

They added makeup, jewels, everything available that would please the king. When they finished I stood straight. "So, will I please the king?"

Their smile told me the truth. "Yes, my lady. He will be very pleased."

I hoped so.

I walked out to the inner court of the palace in front of the king's hall. I could barely breath. I knew Almighty God had this. I trusted Him completely. That didn't mean I wasn't scared on a human epic level. 

The king was sitting on his royal throne in the hall, facing the entrance. 

I saw him and for a very brief second wanted to run back to my chambers. Breathe. God will help you. Many people have prayed for this moment. Must be strong. Oh Lord, have mercy on me.


...come back to read what happens next.

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sources: New International Version, New King James Version  

1. How many days have gone by?
2. What did the maid bring her?
3. How did Esther feel about going to see the king?
4. Why?
5. What did her maids and attendants feel about all of this? 
6. When Esther stood before the king what did she want to do?